10th September 2003
i'll never forget this day.
if all go well..that is..
i hope it does
my only chance.
cannot screw it up..
hope for the best for me
im praying
praying
praying
im gonna hate myself forever if i do this wrong..
but actually..
i just wonder whether the thing is wrong in the first place
seems like..you know..forcing something..
even before they agree to it..
i want to go so much..
but then..
wonder if im doing it wrong..
am i?
am i?
can something just tell me?
i like in a lost..
total lost..
but it's like tmr..
by then..
it'll be too late..
argh
[didnt you know? wasnt it obvious enough?]